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Prologue
Sentaya, near
Silverwater Wash, Fertility Moon waxing, year 1147
She could hear the
last of the thunder rumbling in the distance; she could feel it pulsing
in the ground beneath her feet, as if the earth itself trembled still
at the storm’s fury. The forest flickered with lightning, strange, frightening
shapes flashing before her and then vanishing like wraiths. The rain
had ceased long ago, but a cool wind swept among the trees, carving through
her damp clothes, chilling her like death.
She still carried
the torch, though it offered no light. She didn’t remember it dying out.
She should have thrown it away, but she couldn’t bring herself to let
go of it. There was comfort to be found in the feel of that rough wood,
in the faint smell of oil that still lingered in the burnt remnants of
cloth. She should have taken something from the house. There were clothes
she might need, toys she still loved, tokens that would help her remember
Mama and Papa, Kytha and Baetri. As if she could forget.
Fear had kept her
from going inside. She’d gone in once, seen that they were dead. She
hadn’t found the courage to go in a second time. Then Mama had died,
the last of them, and she had run from the village. Was it even a village
anymore? The houses remained. The lanes, the marketplace, the garden
plots. But with everyone dead, was it still a village?
A moment later she
was crying again. How many tears could a girl shed in one night? Did
grief and shame know any limits? Did fear and rage?
She didn’t know where
she was going. She knew only that there was nothing left for her here,
and that she couldn’t go to the white-hairs again. Not after what had
happened this night.
She crumpled to the
ground, overcome once more with anguish. She wanted to be sick or to
scream or simply to die. Yes, that would have been easiest. Better death
than living with the knowledge of what she had done, and what had been
done to her. There was no one left to mourn her, and there was nothing
left for her but to mourn the others. What kind of life was that?
She knew that she
couldn’t take a blade to herself. She wasn’t brave enough for that.
But she could throw herself in the wash. Or could she? Even that thought
made her quail.
Maybe if she went
back. Maybe if she returned to the house and laid herself down beside
her dead sisters and her father. Maybe that would be enough to kill her.
Another gust of wind
made her shiver, made her teeth chatter. Perhaps she didn’t have to move
at all. She’d heard of people dying in the wild, killed by cold and hunger
and thirst and wild dogs. That could be her.
But just thinking
it made her sit up straight and grip her torch tighter. Even wanting
to die, she was too much a coward to do anything but survive. She felt
that she was betraying those who were gone, though Mama and Papa wouldn’t
have seen it that way. Young as she was, she knew that much. They would
tell her to get up, to start walking again. It doesn’t matter where,
they would say. Just walk. Find another village. Live!
They were dead because
of her. The taste of failure in her mouth was enough to make her gag.
“It wasn’t just me,”
she said aloud, angry, hurt, desperate to believe it. “It’s their fault,
too. Maybe even more than mine.”
Then
why did you lie to Mama?
“I
didn’t mean to lie,” she whispered, tears streaking her face.
Lightning flashed
overhead, illuminating the wood and making her flinch. Pale faces seemed
to loom among the trees, watching her, laughing. She covered her ears
and closed her eyes, but it was several moments before the thunder finally
rumbled its answer. Eventually she opened her eyes again and her hands
dropped to her side.
She sat there for
what seemed a long time. Lightning lit the forest several times more,
and still the thunder retreated. No more rain fell. Even the storm was
leaving her. How she wanted to lie down and close her eyes and never
wake again. But as frightened as she was of being alone, death scared
her more.
Eventually she climbed
to her feet, and still gripping that dead torch, she started down the
path once more. Yes, walk, the voices said, urging her on. Find
another village. Live.
Chapter 1
Kirayde, near
the Companion Lakes, Thunder Moon waxing, year 1211
“What
are we, Grandfather?”
Besh sat back on his
heels, wiping beads of sweat from his brow with the back of his hand and
looking over at the boy. “What are we?” he repeated. “We’re sheep, of
course. Why else would we live in the highlands and eat roots and greens?”
Mihas giggled, but
quickly grew serious again. Whatever had taken hold of the boy’s curiosity
didn’t want to let go.
“You know what I mean,”
he said. “What kind of people are we?”
The old man leaned
forward again, his knees and elbows cushioned in the soft black earth
as he pulled clover and thin sprays of grass out of his garden. The goldroot
looked healthy, the tops of the tubers firm and plump. In another half
turn he’d harvest them. The time for pulling weeds had long since passed.
Was it then vanity that had him crawling about in the dirt, peering into
the shadows of the root greens? Ema would have thought so. She would
have teased him day and night had she seen him now, an old man too proud
to share the earth with clover and grass.
“Grandfather?”
“We are Mettai, Mihas.
You know that.”
“But
what does that mean?”
Besh sat up again.
“Why are you asking me this?”
Mihas looked down
at the ground, kicking at a clod of dirt with his bare foot. His fine
long hair, black as a raven’s feathers, hung over his forehead, concealing
his eyes.
“Do
you remember the peddler who came through here just after the dark of
the moons?” the boy asked.
“The
old Qirsi?”
“Yes, him. He said
something.”
“Come
here,” Besh said, waving the boy over to him.
Mihas
walked to where his grandfather was kneeling and sat beside him, looking
solemn.
Besh smiled to show
the boy he wasn’t angry with him. “What did he say to you?”
“He
said we were like the creyvnal, that we really didn’t know what we were.”
“Perhaps he meant
it as a compliment. The creyvnal is a powerful beast. Wouldn’t you like
to have the body of a lion and the head of a wolf?”
He
smiled; Mihas didn’t.
“The creyvnal isn’t
real, Grandfather. Even I know that.”
“You’re right. It’s
not real. But still the peddler also was right, in a way. The Mettai
are like the Creyvnal.”
“How?”
“Well, we’re Eandi.
We have dark hair and dark eyes, we live long lives, we’re strong like
other Eandi. But like the Qirsi, we can use magic.”
“But did he mean that
we’re not real? I mean, I know we are. But was he saying that our powers
aren’t real?”
Besh eyed Mihas briefly.
Then he reached for one of the clovers he had pulled from the ground and
held it out to the boy.
Mihas
frowned.
“Take
it,” the old man said.
The boy held out his
hand and Besh placed the clover in his palm. “What does Mettai mean?”
he asked. “Do you know?”
“You
mean the word?”
“Yes.”
“It
means blood of the earth.”
“Good. Put some dirt
in your hand with the clover.”
As Mihas did this,
Besh pulled his knife from the sheath on his belt and dragged the blade
across the back of his own hand. His skin there, tanned and brown from
the Growing sun, was scored with dozens of thin white lines, all of them
running parallel to the cut he had just made; evidence of a life spent
drawing upon earth magic. Like rings within the trunks of the great firs
and cedars growing in the forests around Kirayde, the lines on a Mettai’s
hand could be used to judge his or her age.
A man could even trace
the history of all his years, if only he could recall the conjuring made
whole by the blood that flowed from each of those scars. Some would claim
that unnecessary conjurings like this one were a waste of blood and earth,
that they were frivolous expressions of Mettai power. But wasn’t there
value in helping a boy find pride in his heritage and in the power that
flowed in his veins? Besh had been conjuring for most of his sixty-four
years. This, it seemed to the old man, was as valid a reason as any for
drawing forth his blood.
He let the blood well
from the wound for several moments before carefully gathering some on
the flat of his blade. He held the knife over Mihas’s hand, balancing
the blood on the steel.
“Blood to earth,”
he murmured. “Life to power, power to thought, color to clover.”
He tipped the blade,
allowing the blood to drip off the knife and onto the boy’s hand, where
it mingled with the earth and the flower. For a moment nothing happened.
Then the blood and soil, blended together now in what looked like rich,
crimson mud, began to swirl slowly in the palm of the boy’s hand. Four
times it went around, and then it vanished into the roots of the flower.
An instant later,
the soft pink hue of the clover gave way to brilliant sapphire. The flower
appeared to come to life again, its color dazzling, its leaves opening
once more. In the center of the bloom, amid the blue, there appeared
a small spot of bright yellow, as perfect and round as the sun in Morna’s
sky.
Mihas
laughed aloud.
“If
our magic isn’t real,” Besh said, “how do you explain that?”
The boy reached for
another clover. “Do it again, Grandfather!”
“No. Once is enough.
One should never trifle with Mettai magic.”
“Can
you teach me?”
“Not yet. You know
that. When you begin your fourth four you can start to learn. And when
you complete that four, you’ll have earned your blade. All right?”
Mihas nodded, looking
glum. No doubt, five years seemed an eternity to the child. Little did
he know how quickly the time would pass.
Besh glanced at his
hand. The bleeding had slowed. Another scar to mark the years.
Sixteen fours. How
quickly they’d gone by. Many among his people lived to be this old.
He wasn’t so unusual in that respect. If anything, he was more fit than
most. Sixty-four was said to be a powerful age for those who reached
it, a time of wisdom and enhanced magic. For most it was actually a year
of endings. How many men had he seen live out their sixteenth four only
to weaken and die soon after?
Besh had no intention
of being one of them. He planned to guide Mihas into his power. Better
him than Sirj, the boy’s father. The man would make a mess of it, and
in the process he’d do the same to the boy. Besh had never liked Sirj’s
father -- he was as stubborn as he was stupid, and he could never manage
to keep his mouth shut. It was bad enough that the man had built his
house just next to Besh an Ema’s back when she still lived and Besh still
worked as the village cooper. But that Elica should marry the man’s son
. . . Besh shook his head. He would have spit at the thought of Elica’s
fool of a husband had Mihas not been there, watching him. No, Besh couldn’t
die yet. Once Mihas came of age he could go and join Ema in the Underrealm,
but not before.
He licked the blood
from the back of his hand and from his blade, as was proper. A Mettai
never wasted blood, and by licking the wound, he stopped the bleeding.
From what he’d heard over the years, he gathered that this wasn’t true
for other Eandi or for the sorcerer race. But it worked for a Mettai
every time.
“Can
I see your knife again, Grandfather?”
“Have
a care with it,” he said, handing it to Mihas, hilt first.
Mihas’s brown eyes
danced in the sunlight. “I always do. You’re the one who’s always cutting
himself.”
Besh
had to laugh.
Clever boy. His mother’s
child. Dark-skinned and long-limbed, like Elica and like Ema, and as
quick as both of them. Ema would say that the father of such a child
couldn’t be all bad. As far as Besh was concerned it meant only that
Elica’s blood was stronger than her husband’s.
The old man turned
his attention back to the clover and grasses intruding upon his goldroot,
and for a long time he and the boy said nothing. The sun burned a lazy
arc across the sky, blue save for a few feathered clouds. Swallows darted
overhead, wheeling in the light wind, chattering and scolding like children
at play.
“Are
you the oldest person in Kirayde?” Mihas asked suddenly.
The boy was sitting
in the dirt, still toying with the knife. The blue and gold clover lay
on his knee, a prize that he would show his mother and father.
Besh laughed at the
question. “No,” he said. “I’m not the oldest.”
He turned and sat,
stretching out his stiff legs. An old man shouldn’t kneel for so long,
Ema’s voice scolded in his head. If you’re not careful, you’ll wind
up bent and lame.
“That
little girl you play with, the one with so many older brothers.”
“Nissa?”
“Yes,
Nissa.”
“She
only has four brothers.”
“Only four?” Besh
said. “I thought it was more than that. Anyway, her grandmother is older
than I am. And so is the herbmistress.”
“She
is?”
Besh raised his eyebrows.
“Is that so hard to believe?”
“Not really. I just
. . .” Mihas shrugged. “If you’re not the oldest, then why are you one
of the village elders? Nissa’s grandmother isn’t.”
“No, she’s not, but
the herbmistress is. Truly, Mihas, I don’t know why the other elders
chose me to join their circle. But I do know that there’s more to the
choice than just a person’s age.”
“Oh.” Mihas turned
the knife over in his hands. “What about Old Lici? Is she older than
you?”
Besh glanced at the
boy again, but Mihas seemed intent on the blade. Most likely he was curious
and nothing more. Besh had seen several children shouting taunts at the
old woman just a few days before, and he had warned Mihas to stay away
from her. When the boy had asked him why, he hadn’t been able to give
a good reason. This was the first time either of them had mentioned the
woman since then.
“I
believe she is older,” Besh said, trying to keep his tone light.
Apparently
he failed.
“You
don’t like her, do you, Grandfather?”
“I
don’t really care for her one way or another.”
“It
seems like you don’t like her.”
Clever
indeed.
Mihas was right.
Besh didn’t like the old witch who lived at the southern edge of their
village. Or more to the point, he didn’t trust her. He might even have
been afraid of her. Besh had been no more than a babe suckling at his
mother’s breast when Lici first came to Kirayde, but he’d heard others
speak of her arrival enough times that he could almost claim as his own
other people’s memories of that cool Harvest day.
Lici was but eight
years old at the time, a pretty girl with long black hair and fair features.
But something dark lurked in her green eyes -- the memory of tragedy,
some said -- and for some time she refused to speak. It was clear to
all that she had wandered alone in the wild for many, many days, perhaps
as long as an entire turn of the moons, and that she had been without
proper food and clothing for all that time. She was emaciated. Her arms
and legs were covered with insect bites and scarred as if from brambles,
and her hair was matted with filth. Most likely she had kept herself
alive by eating what roots and berries she could find.
Many speculated on
what might have happened to her. Some assumed that she had survived an
outbreak of the pestilence that claimed the rest of her family and village.
Others wondered if she’d been the lone survivor of an attack by brigands.
There were darker suggestions as well -- even then, when Lici was but
a child, a few wondered if she might have been responsible for whatever
doom had befallen the rest of her people.
To Besh’s knowledge,
though, the full tale of Lici’s past was known only to two people: Lici,
of course, and a woman named Sylpa.
Sylpa had been the
leader of the village elders at the time Lici came to Kirayde. That first
day she took Lici in, and during the years that followed raised the girl
as she would a daughter. Gradually, as Lici’s strength returned, and
the memories of whatever tragedy she had endured faded, she began to speak.
She took her lessons with the other children and grew to womanhood. Besh
remembered thinking her beautiful when he was a small boy and easily impressed
by long silken hair and eyes that sparkled like emeralds. But he also
recalled that, even then, he never spoke with her, or rather, that Lici
never spoke with anyone other than Sylpa.
She rarely smiled,
and she had a discomfiting habit of looking a person directly in the eye
as she walked past in utter silence. Though Besh dreamed of marrying
her, he also began to fear her.
Over time his fascination
with her waned. He married Ema, had children of his own, made a name
for himself among the Mettai as a skilled cooper and wise leader, and
eventually was selected as one of the elders. Lici never married. She
had suitors, including an Eandi merchant who saw her one morning as he
drove a cart loaded with his wares into the village marketplace. He returned
to Kirayde several times during that one Planting season, hoping that
this dark, beautiful Mettai woman might deign to speak with him. She
did not. After a time, he stopped coming.
When Sylpa died, Lici
left the house they had shared and built for herself a small hut in a
lonely corner of the village, near what villagers called the South Rill.
She still spoke with no one, but she began to teach herself to weave baskets.
The Mettai of the northern highlands had long been known for their basketwork,
and Kirayde had a master basketmaker who could have offered her an apprenticeship.
But as with everything else, Lici did this alone. And she did it brilliantly.
Within only a few years, her craft rivaled that of the village’s master.
Soon, peddlers were coming from all over the Southlands to buy Lici’s
baskets.
Some in the village
began to say that the woman was growing rich off her craft, that she hoarded
gold and silver pieces the way a mouse hoards grain for the Snows. It
may well have been true, at least for a time. Nevertheless, Lici remained
in her tiny hut, wearing old clothes that had once been Sylpa’s, and eating
the roots and greens she grew in her small garden plot. Then abruptly,
just a few years ago, she began to turn the peddlers away. Suddenly it
seemed that she had no interest in trading any of her baskets. The peddlers
offered more gold. They offered jewels and silverwork from the Iejony Peninsula, and blankets
from the cloth crafters of Qosantia. They stood outside her door and
pleaded with her for just one simple trade. Lici refused them all.
To this day, no one
in the village knew why.
Besh thought it a
fitting end to her years of prosperity, and he was surprised that others
didn’t recognize it as such. The old woman had spent her entire life
in shadow, marked by the gods for some dark fate. Perhaps she meant well.
Perhaps she chose solitude and behaved as she did because she never had
the chance to learn any other way. Truth be told, Besh didn’t care.
He
didn’t want to have anything to do with her, and he certainly didn’t want
Mihas going near her.
“It’s not that I don’t
like Lici,” he told the boy at last, watching the swallows dance overhead.
“I just think you’d be better off staying away from her.”
“But
why?”
“It’s hard to explain.
She’s . . . odd.”
“Is
it because her parents died?”
Besh
looked at the boy, wondering how much he had heard about Lici’s past.
Mihas leaned closer
to him, as if fearing that others might hear what he said next. “Nissa’s
father says that wherever she walks, four ravens circle above her.”
Four ravens. The
Mettai death omen. That was as apt as anything Besh might have thought
to say about her.
“Nissa’s
father may be right.”
“Then
why is she still alive?”
“There are many deaths,
Mihas. Some are slower than others.”
The boy frowned.
“I don’t understand.”
“That’s all right.
Just do as I say and stay away from Old Lici.”
“Yes,
Grandfather.”
Besh stood slowly,
stretching his back and legs. “We should go home,” he said.
Mihas scrambled to
his feet. “Are the roots ready yet?”
“Not quite. Next
turn, perhaps.”
The
boy nodded and handed Besh the knife.
They started walking
back toward the house Besh shared with his daughter’s family. They hadn’t
gone far, however, when Mihas suddenly halted.
“Oh,
no!” the boy said and ran back toward the garden.
“What’s
the matter?” Besh called after him.
Mihas stopped beside
the goldroot, bent down and lifted something carefully out of the dirt.
Then he started back toward Besh.
“What
did you forget?”
“My clover,” the boy
said, holding it up proudly for Besh to see. One might have thought that
Mihas himself had changed its color. “I want to show Mama.”
Besh
knew what the boy’s mother would say about the flower, but he kept his
silence and they walked back home.
The house stood in
a grove of cedar on a small hill just east of the marketplace. It was
larger than most houses in Kirayde, though to an outsider, someone from
one of the Qirsi settlements along the wash, it would have seemed modest
at best. A thin ribbon of pale grey smoke rose from the chimney, and
two small children chased each other among the trees, giggling and shrieking
breathlessly as they ran.
As
Besh and Mihas drew near, Elica emerged from the house bearing an empty
bucket, her long hair stirring in the breeze.
“It’s about time,”
she said, glancing at Mihas and then fixing Besh with a hard glare. “What
were you doing all this time?”
“Taking care of the
goldroot. Can’t an old man tend his garden without being questioned so
by his daughter?”
“Not when there are
more pressing chores to be done.” She held out the bucket to Mihas.
“Fetch some water from the rill, Mihas. Quickly. Supper’s going to be
late as it is.”
The
boy stopped just in front of her, but instead of taking the bucket, he
held up the clover, beaming at her.
“What’s
this?” she asked, taking the flower and examining it.
“Grandfather did it!”
Mihas told her. “It was a clover and I asked him whether our magic is
real and he did that!”
Elica fixed Besh with
a dark look, but then smiled at her son. “It’s lovely. Such a bright
color. Now, please, Mihas. The water.”
“All
right, Mama.”
He
grabbed the bucket and ran off, still clutching the clover in his free
hand.
“You should know better,
Father!” Elica said, sounding cross, as if she were speaking to one of
her children. “No good can come of teaching the boy empty magic. And
anyway, he’s too young to be learning blood craft.”
Sometimes
Besh thought that Elica might be just a bit too much like her mother.
“I taught him nothing,”
he said. “I showed him a bit of magic. And it wasn’t empty. That Qirsi
peddler who came through here earlier in the waxing had him wondering
if Mettai magic could do anything at all. I wanted him to see that it
could.”
“So show him something
useful. You could have brought him back here and started my fire. You
could have healed one of the children’s cuts or scrapes. Elined knows
they have enough between them to keep you bleeding for half a turn. But
no. You choose to color a flower.”
Sirj, Elica’s husband,
stepped around from the back of the house, his shirt soaked with sweat,
a load of unsplit logs in his arms. He wasn’t a big man -- he was only
slightly taller than Elica -- nor was he particularly broad. But he was
lean and strong, like a wildcat in the warmer turns.
“What are you going
on about, Elica? I could hear you all the way back at the wood pile.”
“It’s
nothing,” she said.
Sirj didn’t say anything.
He just regarded them both, waiting. His house, his question. He was
entitled to an answer and both of them knew it.
“I colored a flower
for Mihas,” Besh finally told him. “I wanted to show him some magic.
He was asking if Mettai powers were real.”
Sirj eyed the old
man briefly, his expression revealing little. It might have been that
he knew Besh didn’t like him, or maybe he was no more fond of Besh than
the old man was of him. Whatever the reason, theirs had never been an
easy relationship. But after a moment, Sirj merely shrugged and continued
past Besh and Elica into the house. “No harm in that,” he murmured.
Besh
and Elica exchanged a look before following him inside.
Their supper consisted
of smoked fish, boiled greens, and bread. Annze and Cam, the young ones, spent much of
the meal teasing one another across the table and, after being chastised
for that, feeding their fish to one of the dogs that ran wild through
the village and in and out of nearly everyone’s home. Except Lici’s,
of course. Even the dogs knew better than to bother her.
After they had finished
and Mihas and the little ones had been put to bed, Besh lit his pipe and
went out to smoke it in the cool evening air. He walked around to the
back of the house as he often did, sat on the stump Sirj used for chopping
wood, and gazed up into a darkening sky. Panya was already climbing into
the night, her milky glow obscuring all but the brightest stars. No doubt
red Ilias was up as well, following her across the soft indigo, but Besh
couldn’t see the second moon for the trees.
After a short while,
Elica came out, walked to where he sat, and rested a hand easily on his
shoulder.
“It’s
a clear night,” she said.
“For now. The fog
will come up before long. It always does this time of year.”
She nodded. Then,
“I’m sorry about before, Father. I shouldn’t have said what I did. Sirj
is right. There’s no harm in showing Mihas some magic now and then.”
She kissed the top of his head. “Sometimes I wonder if I’m too much like
Mother.”
Besh smiled. “There
are worse things.”
“I
suppose.”
Elica
started to walk away.
“He
asked me about Lici.”
She stopped, turned.
“What did you tell him?”
“Same thing I always
do: stay away from her. But he won’t be satisfied with that for much
longer.”
“She won’t be alive
much longer,” Elica muttered. Immediately she covered her mouth with
a hand, her eyes wide as she stared down at Besh.
“Forgive me, Father.
I shouldn’t have said that. It was cruel. And I didn’t mean that because
she was old--”
Besh
began to laugh.
“You
think it’s funny?”
The old man nodded.
“Yes, in a way. Mihas asked me today if I was the oldest person in Kirayde.
That’s how we ended up speaking of Lici.” He took Elica’s hand. “It’s
all right, child. You’re right: she won’t be with us much longer. And
-- Bian forgive me for saying so -- perhaps that’s for the best.” He
gave his daughter a sly look. “I, on the other hand, intend to stay around
for a good many years. So don’t go selling off my pipe weed any time
soon.”
She kissed him again.
“Good night, Father. Don’t stay out too long. It’s getting cold.”
Besh gave her hand
a squeeze, then watched her walk away. After some time his pipe burned
out, but still the old man sat, enjoying the air, and the darkness, and
the sounds of the night. A few crickets, the last of the season, chirped
nearby, and off in the distance a wolf howled. In recent nights Besh
had heard an owl calling from the hills north of the village, but not
tonight.
Eventually he began
to see thin strands of mist drifting among the dark trunks of the firs
and cedars, and he stood. The cold night breezes were one thing, but
as Besh had grown older he’d found that the nighttime fogs chilled him,
bone and blood. He retreated into the house and made his way to bed.
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None of the rest would
remember.
Why should they?
Most hadn’t even been alive at the time; those who were had been too young
to understand.
But she knew. Oh,
yes, Lici knew.
She could still see
it all. She could see houses that had long since been broken by storms
and snows and howling winds. She could see copses and clearings that
had since given way to homes and garden plots. She could close her eyes
and summon an image of Kirayde just as it had appeared that first day.
She could walk the lanes past house and plot and tell any who cared to
listen when each had been built or first tilled. She could go to any
person in the village and give the year, turn, and day of his or her birth.
Lici
remembered all of it.
They thought her crazed.
She never married or had children, she didn’t speak to them, she refused
to prattle on about nothing or smile greetings that she didn’t mean.
And so they called her mad, they called her a witch. The children mocked
her and their parents scolded them in turn. But then those same mothers
and fathers ignored her, as if she were nothing more than a spider spinning
webs in her tiny corner of the village. Did they really think that was
better? Would they have chosen silence over taunts had silence been all
they knew?
How long would it
take them to realize that she was gone? Who would be the first to notice?
Would they think that she had wandered off by accident? Would they think
that she had drowned herself in the rill or gotten lost in the night mists?
Or would they know that she left them by choice? Might there be one among
them who would even guess her purpose? Would any of them know why she
had chosen this night? Probably not. But it amused her to imagine the
possibilities.
Sixteen fours. Sixty-four
years. To the very day. That was long enough for anyone to stay in one
place, to live among the same people, to turn over in one’s head the same
thought again and again, to direct every moment of every day toward a
single purpose. Sixteen fours. Some said there was power in the very
number. Indeed. Lici had power in abundance. And she would need all
of it.
She had learned her
craft well. Not basketmaking, though she also had much skill at that,
but rather the blood craft, the magic of her people. The white-hairs
thought that Qirsi magic reigned supreme in the Southlands, and perhaps
they were right. But the magic of the Mettai was no trifle. And in the
hands of a master, even one as old as she, it could be a mighty weapon.
At last her waiting
had come to an end. She had planned and waited, she had suffered indignities
both glaring and subtle, she had trained herself in both her crafts, pushing
herself harder than any master would push even his most prized apprentice.
All in preparation for this night, which was both an ending and a beginning.
Kirayde would be lost to her forever, and despite all that she had endured
here, the thought saddened her. This had been Sylpa’s home and so had
been as much a home to Lici as she could have expected after Sentaya.
Now, though, she would begin a new journey, a new life, if one as old
as she could ask for such a thing. She had hungered for this countless
long years.
From her hut by the
rill she could see the mist gathering about the village, shifting and
elusive, glowing like a horde of wraiths in the white and red radiance
of the two moons. It was nearly time. She had her baskets packed and
ready in her old cart. She could see the nag from her doorway, gleaming
white in the moon glow, shaking her head impatiently, ready to be on her
way. The creature would be a good companion in these last days.
She had enough food
to keep her going until she could trade for more. And though she tried
to think of items she would need that she might be leaving behind, she
knew there was nothing.
She had but one purpose
now. That was all that remained. She could almost smell the Silverwater
and the trees that surrounded the place. The gods knew she remembered
the way, even after all this time.
Some things could
never be forgotten. Or forgiven.
Chapter 2
Runnelwick,
near Silverwater Wash, Dreaming Moon waxing, year 1211
Sunlight sparkled
on the wind-blown waters of the wash, shifting and dancing like stars
in Morna’s sky, so bright that Giraan had to shield his eyes from the
glare as he checked his traps at the water’s edge. The first two of his
eight traps were empty still. One of them had been robbed of its bait.
He doubted that he’d find much in the others either. This trade was still
new to him, and he knew better than to expect success to come quickly.
The gods rewarded
labor. They found virtue in the struggle to perfect new skills. Giraan
had spent sixteen years making his living as a wheelwright, and he had
mastered the saw and the rasp, the plane and the hammer. In return, the
gods had given him a strong back and a steady hand. They had given him
a beautiful wife and four fine children. And they had granted him long
life, so that he might see his sons and his daughter take the first steps
into their adult lives. They had seen to it that he and Aiva wanted for
nothing.
If anything, they
had made life too comfortable, too easy. It almost seemed to Giraan that
they were telling him to try his hand at something new. So after four
fours as a wheelwright he passed the business on to Oren, his eldest,
and he started teaching himself to trap. He bought one trap from a peddler
who had passed through Runnelwick just after the thaw. The rest he built
himself, copying that first one as closely as he could. It took him two
or three tries to get it right, but in time he had his eight traps.
Qirsi in other villages
would have thought him a fool, of course, struggling with his tools when
he possessed shaping magic. But such was the way of the Y’Qatt. His
people understood that the V’Tol, the Life Power -- what others
called magic -- was a gift from Qirsar, one that was not to be squandered
out of indolence. He’d heard the names by which others called the Y’Qatt:
ascetics, fanatics, lunatics. Even the name Y’Qatt had once been meant
as an epithet, for it was believed that the Y’Qatt, an ancient Qirsi clan,
who had refused to fight in the early Blood Wars, had been driven by cowardice.
But it wasn’t that they were craven; they had been opposed to war itself,
seeing it as evil, a misuse of Qirsi power. And so those who, like Giraan,
refused to wield their power for any purpose, embraced the name, seeing
in the principled stand of these ancients an echo of their own piety.
Giraan had argued
with the Qirsi peddlers who occasionally stopped in the village to sell
their wares. He’d been called all the usual names. And always he silenced
them with the same question: If Qirsar had intended for us to expend
our V’Tol on acts of magic, why would he shorten our lives every
time we use it?
No one had ever been
able to answer to his satisfaction, because, quite simply, there was no
good response they could offer. Throughout the Southlands, magic was
killing the people of his race. It was a slow death, imperceptible to
some, but real nevertheless. In recent years, as the number of Eandi
in the land increased, and the number of Qirsi dwindled, others had begun
to realize this as well. Already the Eandi lived longer than did the
men and women of his race. What sense was there in adding to this disparity
by using magic frivolously, by relying on V’Tol to do what might
also be accomplished with some physical effort, with sweat and muscle
and skill? More and more Qirsi were asking themselves this same question;
the Y’Qatt movement was growing.
The next two traps
Giraan checked were empty as well, and he walked on to where he’d set
the third pair. As he drew near, he saw that the nearer of the two had
something in it. A beaver. The gods had been generous. Beaver skins
fetched a fair bit of gold from most merchants -- at least the peddlers
he’d seen trying to sell them had been asking quite a lot. He’d made
a deal with Sedi, the old tanner. Seli would skin and treat any animals
Giraan managed to trap, and in return Giraan would make any repairs that
Sedi’s wagons might ever need, free of charge. Sedi had agreed to the
exchange with a chuckle and a shake of his bald head, no doubt thinking
that he had won the old wheelwright’s services at no cost to himself.
He was going to be disappointed.
When Giraan finally
started back toward the village, he was as giddy as a child. He’d caught
a stoat in the seventh trap. By the end of this day, Sedi would be trying
to change the terms of their bargain, or he’d be looking for a way to
be done with it altogether. Angry as Sedi would be, though, they’d have
a good laugh over it before the night was through.
On his way back home,
he walked past the village plantings and checked to see how the crops
in his and Aiva’s plot were faring. It had been a fine Growing season
-- warm, with enough rain to keep Elined’s earth moist and dark. It would
be another turn before the goldroot was ready, but they might be able
to begin picking the vine beans in half that time. Whenever it finally
began, Giraan was certain that this would be a generous Harvest.
His home stood near
the southern edge of the village. It was no larger than any other house
in the village, but it wasn’t small either. And now that the all the children
had been joined and had built their own houses, it felt almost spacious,
like one of the great palaces in which the Qirsi clan lords lived.
Aiva sat out front,
sharpening the blades she used in the kitchen. Her white hair was pulled
back into a plait, and she wore a simple brown dress. She’d been a beauty
as a youth, with long, thick hair and eyes as pale as bark on an aspen.
As far as he was concerned, she’d lost nothing to age. As he drew near
she looked up and waved. Giraan held up the two animals he’d trapped
and laughed at what he saw on her face: her widened eyes, her mouth agape
and covered with a slender hand.
“Two
of them!” she said, breathless.
“A beaver and a stoat.”
He couldn’t keep the pride from his voice. In truth, he didn’t even try.
Where was the harm in letting his beloved Aiva see how pleased he was?
“Does
Sedi know?”
“Not yet.” He smiled.
“But he will soon enough.”
“He’ll
be angry.”
Giraan shook his head,
the smile lingering. “He’ll act angry at first, but he won’t really mind.
He knows that it was a fair bargain we struck.”
“I hope you’re right.”
She stood and looked at the stoat and then the beaver. “They’re fine
animals, Giraan. You should be very proud.”
“I
doubt that either one is fit for eating.”
“We both know that
you didn’t trap them for their meat. You trapped them for gold, and for
the sheer challenge of it.”
Giraan frowned. “You
sound as though you disapprove.”
“Not at all. Just
don’t be talking about the lack of meat as if that makes you less thrilled
about the catch than you really are.”
She smiled to soften
the words. Then she raised herself onto her tiptoes and kissed his cheek.
“Take them to Sedi,” she said. “I don’t want them in my kitchen.”
He had to grin. “Yes,
my lady.”
It usually made her
laugh when he addressed her so, but suddenly Aiva was looking past him,
toward the path that wound past their house to the marketplace. He turned
to look.
An old woman had paused
on the track to watch them. Her hair was as white as that of any Qirsi,
but the darkness of her skin and eyes marked her as one of Ean’s children.
She wore a simple brown dress much like Aiva’s except that this one was
frayed and tattered. Though the day was warm, she also wore a faded green
wrap around her bent shoulders. She carried two large baskets, one under
each arm, both of them covered with small blankets that concealed their
contents. She also wore a carry sack on her back.
“Hello,”
Giraan called, raising a hand in greeting as he stepped around Aiva to
put himself between this stranger and his love.
“This
house is new,” the woman said, her voice so low that for a moment he wondered
if he’d heard her correctly.
“I’m sorry, but I
believe you’re mistaken. My wife and I built this house ourselves nearly
sixteen years ago.”
The woman stared at
him a moment. Then a faint smile crept over her face. “Yes,” she said.
“And to me, that would make it new.”
“You
were here that long ago?” Aiva asked, taking a step forward.
“It’s been sixteen
fours,” the woman said. “I was just a child.”
“Sixteen fours!” Aiva
said. “Truly the gods have blessed you!”
The woman grinned,
revealing sharp, yellow teeth. “Yes, they have.”
“You
live near here?” Giraan asked.
“I did once. We lived
. . . we lived south of here. But my people moved about a good deal.”
“You’re
Mettai,” he said.
She stared at him
for several moments, her smile fading slowly. “We are,” she answered,
ice in her voice.
Giraan shook his head.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to offend you.”
“Why should I be offended?
You merely told me what I already know. I’m Mettai.”
“Yes, of course.
But I . . .”
“When
you said I was Mettai, did you mean to insult me?”
It almost seemed that
she was trying to confound him with her words and her indignation. “Not
at all,” Giraan said, smiling, trying to mollify her.
“But you know that
we are hated by Eandi and Qirsi alike, and so you feared that I would
take offense. If you were to see a one-legged beggar in a marketplace,
you would not say to him, ‘You’re a cripple.’ You would ignore his infirmity,
or at least pretend to. But you would slip a silver into his cup as a
gesture of pity, and feel that you had done a good turn. So, it is with
the Mettai. You spoke without thinking, stating what was obvious, and
now you fear that you have reminded me of my infirmity.”
“I
assure you--”
Aiva
laid a hand on Giraan’s arm, silencing him.
“I’m afraid you’ve
misunderstood my husband, good lady,” she said. “He simply apologized
because we do not judge people by their race or even their clan, and he
feared that you would think he was doing just that. We are Y’Qatt. We
know as well as anyone what it is to be shunned by one’s people. You
would be welcome here no matter your clan or your nation.” She beckoned
to the woman with an open hand. “Please. Come and sit with us. No doubt
you’ve traveled far. You must be weary. We haven’t much, but we can
offer you food and drink.”
“My lady is most kind,
but I should be getting on to your marketplace. The day’s nearly half
gone, and I’ve farther to go.”
“What is it you’re
selling?” Giraan regretted the question as soon as the words crossed
his lips. He would have preferred that this strange woman move on and
leave them in peace. But he was curious about those overlarge baskets
she carried, and he couldn’t help but give voice to that curiosity.
She smiled again,
and he thought he saw a flash of malice in her dark eyes. He knew what
she was thinking. He and Aiva would buy something from her now, or at
least agree to a trade. He’d asked the question. But more than that,
he was still stinging from what she’d said earlier. They’d barter over
price and he’d convince himself that he needed whatever she might be selling.
But in the end, no matter how much he gave her, it would be the same as
that silver slipped into a beggar’s cup: a token of his pity, a way to
assuage his guilt. For the truth was, as soon as he said that she was
Mettai, he had cringed inwardly. Her infirmity. He would never have
phrased it that way, but yes, that was just how he thought of it. Whatever
Aiva might have said, being Y’Qatt was nothing like being Mettai.
He and his people
chose to live as they did because they knew that in resisting the urge
to use their powers, they were acceding to Qirsar’s wishes. Their way
of life honored the Qirsi god. The Mettai, on the other hand, were born
to their fate. Some said that they were created by the Eandi god, Ean,
to mock Qirsar. Here, Ean seemed to be saying, I give you Eandi sorcerers
who are neither frail of body nor cursed with brief lives. Others claimed
the opposite. Qirsar made them, these people said, to show Ean how his
children might have been if only he’d been able to give them the gift
of magic. Either way, the Mettai were mongrels, or worse, the bastard
offspring of some rivalry between the gods. In a sense, they were the
embodiment of the Blood Wars, the violent conflicts that had been fought
throughout the history of the Southlands.
More to the point,
though, they used blood magic, opening their veins for every act of sorcery.
They were as different from the Y’Qatt as the darkest, coldest night of
the Snows was from the bright warmth of this fine day.
“You’d
like to see what I’m carrying?” the old woman asked, tilting her head
to the side as might a mischievous child.
Aiva nodded, no doubt
eager to end the unpleasantness. She hated it so when anyone failed to
get along. “Yes, please.”
“All right, then.”
The woman placed both baskets on the ground and stretched. Even without
her burden, her back remained bent, her shoulders rounded.
Then she removed the
blankets that covered the two baskets, and Giraan forgot everything else.
The strange awkwardness that had made him wary of the stranger just moments
before seemed to vanish, as if swept away by magic. Within the large
baskets were smaller ones of all sizes, shapes, and colors. Basketry
was the one craft for which the Mettai were renowned throughout the land,
and clearly this woman had mastered the art as few others had.
“They’re
beautiful!” Aiva whispered.
The woman smiled and
inclined her head. “Thank you, my lady.”
“You
made all of them yourself?”
“I
did.”
“There are so many.
It must have taken you years.”
“Several,
yes.”
Giraan looked at her.
“Haven’t you been selling them all along?”
“I promised myself
that I would see as much of the land as possible before Bian called me
to his side. So I made these baskets and set them aside from those I
sold day to day. I trade these for food and gold, sometimes even for
a night’s sleep in a warm bed. As you can see, there are plenty here,
and they’re of good quality. And if need be, I can make more. Osiers
are easy enough to find.”
The smile remained
on her tanned, wrinkled face, and she didn’t shy away from his gaze.
But something about what she was telling them struck Giraan as odd. Still,
even if the woman was half-mad, there could be no denying the worth of
her wares.
Aiva
had already chosen two baskets, one that was shallow and round, and another
with steeper edges and a braided handle.
“You’ve chosen well,
my lady,” the woman said. “Those are two of my favorites.”
She might have been
strange, but clearly the woman had been peddling for a long time. She
knew this craft as well.
“How much for the
two of them?” Giraan asked, reverting to the tone he had used in his shop
when negotiating the price of a new wheel for a cart, or the repair of
a broken rim. “We don’t have much gold.”
“I don’t need gold;
only something else I can trade in another village.” She nodded toward
the beaver and stoat that he still carried. “I’d trade them for pelts
if you have any.”
“I’m
afraid I don’t.”
“Food then. Salted
meat? Cheese? A loaf or two of bread?”
“Baskets such as these
would fetch a fair bit in the marketplace. I’m not sure that we can spare
so much from our kitchen.”
“I’m an old woman,
sir. I don’t eat much, and I’m not trying to grow fat and rich in my
last years. As I’ve told you, I seek only enough so that I can continue
my travels. Surely you and the lady would be able to part with one loaf
of bread and half a wheel of cheese.”
“You’d
trade the baskets for so little?”
She frowned, seeming
to consider this. “I don’t suppose you have any wine as well?” She glanced
at Aiva, the grin returning. “I might be old, but that doesn’t mean I’ve
forsaken all my old pleasures.”
“Of course you haven’t,”
Aiva said kindly. “But I’m afraid we have no wine. Perhaps some smoked
fish. We’ve been preparing it for the colder turns, but we already have
a good deal, and we’ve time to catch and smoke more.”
Aiva looked at Giraan,
a question in her eyes. He was reluctant to part with the fish, but he
could see that she wanted the baskets, and she was right: they did have
time before the end of the Harvest. They could catch more fish.
“Three whole fish,”
he said, facing the old woman. “In addition to the cheese and bread.”
She nodded. “Done.”
They
stood in silence a moment, the woman eyeing him expectantly. Then he realized
that Aiva was already holding the baskets she had chosen, and the stranger
was waiting for her payment.
“Right,” he said.
“I’ll get the food.”
He turned, walked
into the house, and quickly gathered the fish, cheese, and bread, wrapping
them in an old cloth, as ragged as the woman’s dress. When he stepped
back outside, he heard Aiva speaking to the stranger. It took him only
a moment to understand that his wife was trying to make conversation,
and that the old woman was doing little to encourage her.
“.
. . With your family when you came here?”
“I believe so. I
was very young.”
“Do
you remember how old you were.”
“No.”
“But you remember
the village. You said so. Is it so different now? Have we changed that
much?”
At that the woman
looked up, gazing first at Giraan, who had paused on the top step, and
then at Aiva. “No,” she said. “I don’t think your people have changed
at all.”
She
swung the travel sack off her shoulders and held out a thin, roughened
hand for the food.
Giraan
walked to where she stood and handed it to her.
“Thank you, sir,”
she said, placing the bundle carefully in her sack and shouldering the
burden again. She looked briefly at Aiva. “My lady. I hope you find
good use for the baskets.”
With that, she started
off into the village. She didn’t so much as glance back at them.
“I’m
glad to see her go,” Giraan said.
Aiva nodded absently,
admiring her new baskets. “She is odd. But she does fine work.”
“I
suppose.”
She glanced at him.
“Go find Sedi. Get your animals skinned and tanned. You’ll feel better.”
Giraan laughed. “You’re
right.” He started his friend’s house. “I won’t be long.”
He walked slowly,
having no desire to catch up with the old woman. He even stopped briefly
by the wash, just to sit and watch the water flow by before continuing
on his way. By the time he reached Sedi’s home on the west end of Runnelwick,
he felt reasonably certain that the stranger had seen to her business
in the marketplace and moved on.
Sedi glanced up from
his work as Giraan entered the shop. An instant later, his eyes snapped
up a second time, fixing on the two animals Giraan carried.
“I don’t believe it!”
he said, setting aside his work and standing. “Two already? And a stoat,
no less!”
“Both
in need of your skills, my friend.”
The tanner shook his
head, a smile on his thin face. “I should have known better than to make
such a bargain with you, Giraan. I’ve known you for more than eight fours,
and you’ve always managed to best me in everything.”
“Not everything,”
Giraan said. “You’ve always been the better fisherman, and our garden
never looks as fine as yours.”
Sedi nodded, conceding
the point. “Almost everything, then.”
“You
know that I’ll gladly do whatever work your wagons ever need.”
“Of course, and I’m
happy to treat your skins.”
Giraan
handed him the rope on which he’d tied the animals.
“That’s a good sized
beaver,” Sedi said. “It should fetch a fair price when the next peddlers
come through from the east.”
“The
east?”
“Yes. And wait for
an Eandi. No matter how much a Qirsi peddler offers you, an Eandi will
beat the price. Particularly if he’s headed for Qosantia or Tordjanne.”
Giraan knew immediately
that this was sound advice. It made sense, really. Since the end of
the Blood Wars, the bordering nations of the Eandi -- Stelpana and Naqbae
-- had remained hostile to anyone or anything having to do with the Qirsi,
even outcasts like the Y’Qatt. The people of Aelea were much the same
way. The wealthier nations of the lowlands, however, seemed more than
happy to trade in Qirsi goods, and in fact, according to many of the peddlers
who came through Runnelwick during the course of the year, they often
sought out certain items from the Qirsi clans -- baskets, blankets, the
fine light wines of the H’Bel and the Talm’Orast. It shouldn’t have surprised
him that they would also covet the fine animal pelts found in the northern
lands near the Companion Lakes.
“All right, then.
Thanks for the advice,” Giraan said.
Sedi grinned. “You
sure you should trust me? We’re competitors now.”
Giraan had to laugh.
“Hardly.” He turned to leave the shop. “Thank you, my friend.”
“My pleasure. I won’t
get to them today, and they’ll need a few days to dry once I’ve done the
work. Give me until the beginning of the waning.”
“Of course.” Giraan
opened the door, but then paused on the threshold. After a moment he
faced the tanner again. “Aiva and I had a strange encounter today. A
Mettai woman along the road.”
“The
one peddling baskets?”
“You
saw her, too.”
Sedi shook his head,
light from the doorway shining in his bright yellow eyes. “No. But I’ve
heard others speaking of her. Of her baskets to be more precise.”
“What
are they saying?”
The tanner shrugged.
“That her baskets are the finest to be seen here in anyone’s memory.”
“But what about her?”
Giraan demanded, his voice rising. “What are they saying about the woman?”
Sedi frowned. “I’ve
heard nothing about her. Why?”
Giraan sighed, then
took a long breath, trying to calm himself. Why, indeed? He wasn’t sure
himself. “Forgive me. I found the woman . . . odd. Disturbingly so.
But I said something foolish when first I saw her, and if may just be
that she didn’t like me very much.”
“What
did you say?”
“It doesn’t matter.”
Giraan forced a smile, embarrassed by the memory. “Forget that I mentioned
it.” He left Sedi’s shop, intending to walk back home. Instead, not
quite knowing why, he turned and walked to the marketplace, scanning the
stalls, peddlers’ carts, and byways for the old woman. He didn’t see
her, but he soon realized that her baskets were everywhere. Or rather,
not everywhere, but present in numbers enough to be noticeable. Several
of his fellow villagers had already purchased their own, and a number
of sellers had traded for others and were now peddling them along with
their wares.
Wherever she was now,
the old woman’s purse had to be bulging with Runnelwick’s gold. Giraan
wasn’t certain why this disturbed him so, or why he should begrudge the
stranger her success. What was the old woman to him? Yes, she was strange,
not to mention rude. But even he could see that her baskets were lovely.
No wonder so many of his neighbors wanted them. Hadn’t Aiva herself traded
for two of them? After some time he shook his head and turned for home.
This was too fine a day to waste brooding over a strange old Mettai witch.
#
Giraan and Aiva ate
a modest supper of smoked fish, black bread, and steamed greens. They
had their meal outside, on the steps of the house, where they could enjoy
the cool evening air. Still, throughout the meal, despite his best efforts,
Giraan could think of little besides his encounter with the Mettai woman.
And each time he relived their conversation, the memory of it grew darker,
until he began to wonder if he should burn the baskets she had given them
and run through the village shouting for his neighbors and friends to
do the same. He tried to laugh off his fears, but they clung stubbornly
to his mind, souring his mood.
So
it was that he didn’t notice how quiet Aiva had been during the evening
until she actually said something.
“I
don’t feel well.”
He looked at her.
“What?”
She’d
barely touched her food, and her face looked pale in the shadows of the
cedars and hemlocks growing beside the house.
“I feel ill. My stomach.”
“Maybe you’re hungry.
You haven’t--”
“No,
that’s not it.”
He held the back of
his hand to her brow. “You’re burning up!”
“Damn,” she whispered.
She stood abruptly, spilling the plate that had been resting on her lap,
and ran around to the side of the house. Giraan heard her vomit.
He put his plate aside
and followed her, his hands trembling. Was it just hearing her be sick,
or was he starting to feel ill as well.
“Maybe
I didn’t smoke the fish enough,” he said.
She shook her head.
“You said I was feverish.”
“That damned woman
brought the pestilence. She’ll be the death of us all.”
“Don’t be a fool,
Giraan,” she said through clenched teeth, breathing hard. “She wasn’t
sick at all. A woman that old. She wouldn’t have been able to walk.”
She
spun away and retched again.
“Should
I get the healer?”
Aiva
nodded, her back still to him.
He strode away, making
his way quickly toward old Besse’s home west of the marketplace. Was
that ache in the pit of his stomach fear or illness?
The walk seemed to
take ages, but at last he came within sight of the small cottage. The
healer’s door was open and a thin, curving line of blue-grey smoke rose
from her chimney, but Giraan saw no sign of Besse herself.
He stopped a short
distance from the house. “Healer?” he called.
After
a few seconds, she emerged from the house, straight-backed and alert,
in spite of the deep lines on her face.
“That
you, Giraan?”
“Yes. Aiva’s sick.
I think . . . I don’t know . . . It might be the pestilence.”
She nodded once.
“I’ll come with you. Just let me get my herbs.”
Besse
disappeared into the house.
Giraan took a deep
breath and closed his eyes briefly. If anyone could help Aiva, it was
the old healer. She’d been caring for the people of Runnelwick since
before Giraan had finished his fourth four. Always she had put the needs
of the village ahead of her own. She had never been joined to anyone,
though he knew there had been men in her life. She’d never had children
of her own, though she’d been there for nearly every birth in the village
for the last thirty years. Even now, hearing Giraan say that the pestilence
may have come to his home, she didn’t hesitate to follow him to Aiva’s
side.
She stepped out of
the house and bounded down the stairs as if she were closer to five fours
than ten. Giraan actually had to hurry to catch up to her as she strode
up the path toward his house. As he did, he noticed that she bore her
herbs and oils in a new basket. His heart sank.
“What
are her symptoms?” Besse asked, whatever fear she might have felt masked
by the crispness of her voice.
“She’s
vomiting and she’s burning with fever.”
Besse nodded once.
“And you? Are you feeling ill, too?”
He was. His stomach
was churning and he could almost feel the bile rising in his throat.
But was he imagining it all? “I don’t know,” he finally said.
Giraan had expected
that she’d think him a fool, or worse, a coward. But she merely patted
his arm and nodded again. “I know,” she said. “Our minds do strange
things at times like these.” Then, almost as an afterthought, she raised
her hand to his brow. Immediately, she frowned. “You’re warm. Hot really.”
He felt his innards
turn to water. It seemed he really was a coward. For all his concern
about Aiva, it was the prospect of his own death that brought panic.
“I’ll come see Aiva,
but then I have to leave you. The Elders need to be told.”
“Yes, of course,”
he whispered. His eyes flicked to her basket, and he almost said something
about the old Mettai woman. But she would probably think him foolish,
just as Aiva had.
“It might be something
else, Giraan. I’m not certain yet that it’s the pestilence. But even
the possibility . . .” She exhaled. “You understand.”
He
nodded, fighting to keep from being ill right there on the path.
They walked the rest
of the way in silence. By the time they reached Giraan’s house it was
growing dark. A faint light shone from within the house, and the door
still stood open, but there was no other sign of life. They hurried up
the stairs, and found Aiva lying in bed, her face damp with sweat, her
eyes half closed. A single candle burned on the small table beside her.
Besse sat on the edge
of the bed and laid a hand on her brow. After a moment, she leaned closer
and looked at her eyes.
“How
are you feeling, Aiva?” she asked.
“Great,” Aiva said
weakly. “You?”
Besse grinned briefly.
“Good for you. I deserved that.”
Aiva squeezed her
eyes shut and grimaced. “It’s getting worse.”
“What
is?”
“The
pain.”
“In
your stomach?”
She shook her head
slightly, her eyes still closed. “No. My head. My head is hurting.”
Besse frowned. “Your
head?”
Aiva pulled a trembling
hand free from the blanket, and raised it to her temple. “Right here.
And the other side, too.”
“What
does that mean?” Giraan asked.
Besse didn’t even
look at him. “I don’t know.”
She lifted the blankets
off of Aiva and began to examine her limbs. “Light another candle,” she
said. “I want to see if I can find evidence of a bite.”
“A
bite?”
“The pestilence comes
from vermin, and it often begins with a flea bite.” After several moments
she shook her head. “But I don’t see anything.”
“Maybe
she caught it from someone else.”
“No
one else in the village is ill.”
“Maybe
it wasn’t someone in the village.”
“Oh, Giraan,” Aiva
said. “Not this again.”
“What?”
Besse demanded looking from one of them to the other.
“That Mettai woman,”
Giraan said. “The one who made the basket you’re carrying. I . . . I
think she brought the pestilence to Runnelwick.”
“Impossible,” Besse
told him. “A woman that old wouldn’t have been able to walk had she been
as sick as Aiva. And you can’t pass the pestilence to anyone until you
have it yourself.”
Giraan knew that she
was right. She had to be. Besse knew far more about these matters than
anyone else in the village. But still, he couldn’t let go of his suspicions.
He fully intended to argue the point further. But in that moment, he
felt his gut spasm. He stood and lurched to the door, just barely making
it outside before emptying his stomach.
He leaned on the railing
of his small porch, retching until his body was sore. Eventually, as
the spasms passed, he realized that Besse was with him, steadying him.
“Come on,” she said.
“You need to lie down.”
She led him back into
the house and soon had him lying beside Aiva, cold, damp cloths on both
of their brows. “I need to speak with the Elders,” she said, “but I’ll
send for Oren.”
“No!” Aiva said.
Giraan felt how her body tensed, but she could barely manage more than
an airy whisper. “I don’t want him coming near us.”
“He’s grown now,”
Besse said. “I’ll leave that choice to him.”
Before
Aiva could argue more, the healer had gone.
“He’ll come,” Aiva
whispered. “If she tells him to, he’ll come. That’s the kind of boy
he is.”
“He’s not a boy anymore.
He’ll have a child of his own before long.”
“All
the more reason to keep him away from here.”
“So
he should let us die alone?”
“Of
course, if that’s the choice.”
Giraan knew that he
should have been thinking the same thing. Again, he wondered at his own
cowardice, his willingness to save himself at the expense of those he
supposedly loved.
“You’re right,” he
said, hot tears running down into his white hair. “Forgive me.”
She
took his hand.
He could feel the
pain building in his temples now, just as Aiva had described. I’m
dying, he told himself. In these last hours, I must make peace
with that. He heard Aiva’s breathing slow, felt her grip slacken.
She had fallen asleep. He wondered if she’d ever wake again. He almost
woke her then. Perhaps sleep would hasten death’s advance. Perhaps he
was merely afraid to be alone.
He must have fallen
asleep himself, for the next thing he knew, Oren was there, sitting beside
him on the bed, trying to spoon hot broth into his mouth. Giraan tried
to swallow one mouthful, but as soon as the liquid hit his stomach, it
started back up again. He turned his head and retched onto the floor.
After a moment he settled back onto his pillow.
“I’m sorry,” he said.
He could barely hear his own voice.
“It’s all right,”
Oren told him. “Mama couldn’t keep it down either. My cooking isn’t
as good as hers.” He tried to smile, but there were tears on his cheeks.
“Seslanne has it, too.”
“You
should be with her,” Aiva said.
“I have been. Her
mother and father are there now. But I wanted to see you.”
“Did
she see the Mettai woman?” Giraan asked, his heart laboring.
Oren narrowed his
pale eyes. “What?”
“Seslanne. Did she
buy a basket from a Mettai woman today?”
“No. Well, she bought
a basket, but from one of the peddlers in the marketplace. She said nothing
about a Mettai woman. Why?”
Giraan opened his
mouth to explain, but at that moment Aiva went rigid beside him. For
a moment Giraan thought she was going to be sick again. But she didn’t
so much as move.
“Oren,
you must leave at once!” she said, her teeth clenched.
“But,
Mama--”
“Leave! Now! I beg
you!”
“Aiva--” Giraan began.
But in that instant he felt it, too.
It had been so long
since he’d even reached for his magic, since it had occurred to him to
wonder how powerful he was, or even to think of himself as a sorcerer.
He was Y’Qatt. As a boy, of course, he had dreamed of wielding his magic
in battle or perhaps using it to save the village from brigands. No doubt
all children did, including those in an Y’Qatt village. But he hadn’t
yet come into his powers then -- he hadn’t known that he was a shaper,
that he could bend matter to his will, or that he could call to the wild
creatures of the wood with language of beasts. Once he was old enough
to understand what it was to be Y’Qatt, he had put such notions out of
his mind. The urge to use his magic had left him years ago.
Or so he had thought.
For suddenly, he felt power building inside of him, like flood waters
gathering behind an earthen dam. He tried to resist. Qirsar knew he
did. He had spent years disciplining himself, refusing to give in to
the temptation to use his powers. But that had been a matter of choice,
of denying himself the luxury of laziness. This was something else entirely,
like holding one’s breath until the urge to breathe overmastered one’s
will. He struggled against it, but he knew from the start that he would
fail in the end. It was too much; there seemed to be a greater force
at work, as if the god had chosen to punish him for a lifetime of abnegation.
“She’s right, Oren!”
he managed to say. “You must leave! Now!”
“But,
Papa--”
“You feel it, too?”
Aiva asked. He could hear the strain in her voice.
“Yes. I can’t fight
it much longer.”
“Fight
what?” Oren asked, gaping at both of them, looking so terribly young.
Before Giraan could
answer, a wind began to rise, making the candle flames dance and rattling
the chairs and tables. Aiva’s wind. That was one of her powers: mists
and winds. And fire.
“Leave now!” Giraan
shouted, though it took all his strength to make himself heard over what
was fast becoming a gale. And in making that effort, he felt his control
over the storm of magic raging within him waver. It was only for an instant,
but that was enough. He heard the rending of wood as if it were thunder,
and he saw a crack open in the roof of his home.
Aiva’s
wind keened like a wild beast, extinguishing the candles, so that the
only light in the house came from Panya, the pale moon, whose glow filtered
through the trees.
Oren was on his feet,
his eyes wide with fear, but still he wouldn’t leave. “What’s happening?”
he cried. “I don’t understand!”
“The fever is attacking
our magic,” Giraan said. Again his grip on the power failed. It was
all he could so to direct the magic at the table by the bed and not at
his son. The table crumbled as if hammered by some unseen demon. “We
can’t control it!”
“My god!” Oren whispered.
“Seslanne!” He backed toward the door. “I’m sorry. . .”
“Don’t apologize!”
Aiva told him. “Go to her!”
Giraan tried to pour
out the magic inside him by calling upon his other power, knowing that
he could do no further damage to the house with language of beasts. But
he hadn’t the control. He knew that he was speaking gibberish to the
wild creatures in the woods around Runnelwick, but still shaping power
coursed through his body. So he wasn’t at all surprised when the ball
of fire flew from Aiva’s side of the bed and crashed against the opposite
wall. Immediately, flames started to climb the wood, licking at the ceiling
and filling the room with thick smoke. Between her fire and winds and
his shaping, their home would soon be a pile of charred ruins.
“We
have to get out of here!” he said, taking her hand.
“What’s
the use?” she said coughing.
“Maybe
Besse can find a way to help us.”
“Besse
will be sick before lo |