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11.01.2003 Weight: 267Mood: damn good, if I do say so myself Okay, the weight hasn't budged much, but I also didn't work out yesterday because I was feeling so darn tired (I'm going into the doc's on Monday to get another blood pull -- I really think my thyoid meds need to be increased. I'm tempted to just increase it myself, but I don't want that throwing off the bloodwork results). UPDATE: I really didn't want to spend my entire Saturday feeling exhausted and out of it, so I popped another pill. It's only been about 15 minutes, but I already feel a lot more clear-headed and alert. Yep, gotta get the scrip upped. HowEVER, I didn't eat any of the Halloween candy, I did 2,681 words on Nanowrimo today, and I just got my check for the web site I did last month, so I'm celebrating by going out and getting a blender and the makings for a low-carb mocha frap (yeah, I know I said I was going to do it last night, but I decided to wait until I got the check. Got it, so there IS money for everything -- whee!). Tonight, my children, there will be blended caffeine! |
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10.31.2003 Weight: 267Mood: Candy all around me, dammit. . .  Happy Halloween (and yes, I know it's gross, but it's one of the funniest pumpkin pics I've ever seen)!
Well, lessee -- there's a big ol' sheet cake in the foyer available to all, someone just came by reverse trick-or-treating, and I may have to buy candy tonight just in case we get any kids (we haven't in the last two years, but there's been a lot of apartment turnover in that time and a number of kids in the complex now, and I hate the thought of turning someone away). I am positively surrounded by carbohydrates, I tell you. And no, I'm not particularly tempted. But I do have a fondness for iced sugar cookies, and there's a little residual twinge when they're being offered in the cafeteria. However, I had a Carb Sensations bar after lunch, which took the edge off, and I'm hoping to reach 265 sometime this weekend. That's better than a sugar cookie any day. I've also decided that with Nanowrimo starting tomorrow, I'm going to stop off at Albertson's and Target tonight and indulge in the makings for a low-carb mocha frappuccino. I just need coffee, cream, low carb chocolate and hazelnut syrups (available at Albertson's), a blender to puree the ice (hence the Target stop), and I'm ready to rock and roll. Of course, where I'm going to PUT the blender is another story entirely -- what with Lyndon taking up an entire counter with his leatherworking/computer stuff, it kinda puts a crimp in the kitchen space. Maybe on the food preparation counter, yeah. . . |
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10.30.2003 Weight: 267Mood: whooo, dizzy. . . I did two very stupid things this morning (well, three, come to think of it). One, I forgot to take my multivitamin and fish oil caplets before heading off to work. I figured it wouldn't harm anything and I'd just take them tonight. Nononono, because-- Two, I was bloody ravenous this morning, and didn't have anything to eat until I got into the office. I started feeling really tired and dizzy, so I had a Carb Sensations bar. Didn't feel any better, however, so-- Three, I got a handful of Skittles out of the bulk vending machine and ate those (why? Because I thought the sugar would help. I'm an idiot). Maybe ten pieces, and now I'm REALLY tired and out of it. Yuck -- this is what happens when I try to eat sugar after two weeks away from the stuff. I am now about to head off to Walgreen's and get a stash of vitamins and fish oil tablets for use at work, should this ever happen again. And hopefully the sugar will wear off in a couple of hours. Man, never again. . . Later: I walked around a bit after going to Walgreen's and I do feel better. Mellie has learned her lesson. Oh, and it looks like what I'm really doing is overclocking my body, according to this article at Salon. I feel all warm and geekish, now, to know that I'm hacking my own metabolism. Speaking of that, however, I think it's time to go in and get another blood pull -- my throat feels really odd and swollen around my thyroid, and since I'm being a heck of a lot more active I want to see if my scrip is still good or if it needs to be bumped up some more. We'll see. One last thing -- I've been kinda struggling to find decent low-carb dinners after work when I'm waiting to go to fencing or dance class. It turns out that Boston Market sells a very nice grilled chicken breast plate with two veggies for a little over six bucks -- the include a mini-loaf of corn bread, but you can always tell them to hold that. I know where I'm eating on Monday and Wednesday nights from now on. |
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10.29.2003 Weight: 267Mood: Damned perky, if I do say so myself I still don't know if I'll make it to 265 by Friday, but now it doesn't matter -- on a lark, I tried on my black ballgown this morning, and it fit! In fact, it may have been just a touch loose (and it almost certainly will be, if I wear my black bustier underneath as planned. Weelah -- the Technical Fairy will ride on Halloween after all! It also means that I'm back down to the size I was in Montreal, since I made the dress our first year there. I'm going to wait until I'm officially down to 265, then dig out the G-Division jeans (the ones Lyndon bought for me when we first got married) and see how well they fit now. I can actually get into them at the moment, but when we bought them they were comfortable -- no bulging over the waistband or sensation of blood being cut off in my thighs, which is what happened the last time I tried them on. Once I can fit in those comfortably, then it's time for the big test of the year -- trying on my wedding dress on Christmas Day. If I can fit in that, I'm back down to the size I was in 1993, and it's the successful completion of Phase One. Phase Two will consist of getting down to 225, a weight I haven't been since sophomore year of high school. This should be interesting. I also have to think of some cheap but wonderful treat for me at the end of Phase One -- hmm, maybe some new software. . . In the meantime, it's off to fencing tonight and belly dancing tomorrow to make up for the missed class on Monday. Gotta acquire some new bruises, dontchaknow. . . |
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10.27.2003 Weight: 270Mood: well, I'm starting to have a mood again. . . I'm starting to feel better again -- I worked out this afternoon and didn't feel like passing out, which is how I felt after getting on the treadmill Saturday night. Convulsed veins + aerobic exercise = mega ouchies for Mellie. And I'm not too worried about the weight -- I didn't work out last night because I was still too out of it from the migraine, but I pretty much stuck to the plan apart from that semi-illegal PB sandwich. But I was a good girl today, and did my bit in the gym, so I should see a decrease in numbers soon. 265 would be nice for Friday, but I won't freak if I don't make it -- the real goal is to hit 250 by Christmas, and I think I can do that. However, I'm going to gather all the makings for a low-carb mocha frappuccino just as soon as I can afford them and a blender -- I'm going through serious Starbucks withdrawals here, man. |
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10.26.2003 Weight: 269Mood: Wishing I felt better Unsurprisingly, the water weight did drop off eventually, although I still feel like crap. Took a couple of Excedrin Migraine tablets a while ago, which cleared my head to a degree (at least I was able to speak coherently, an ability I seem to have lost earlier in the day). My typing still sucks, though -- you wouldn't believe all the mistakes I've been making all day. And I'm gonna make an appointment with the doc to see why I have this sensation of something touching the left side of my throat. Dunno if it's thyroid-related or what, but it's frigging annoying -- I keep feeling like I have something stuck in my throat. Arrgh. Come to think of it, this always happens when I start losing weight -- I'm fine for a week or two, then I always get sick or start feeling crappy. I have to wonder if I have some sort of ick reservoir in my fat cells, or my body is just obnoxious and doesn't want to slim down. Since last year, I've lost weight in fits and starts forced by illness -- I'd lose ten pounds, then plateau when I started feeling crappy, then I'd yo-yo a bit before stabilizing, then lose another five pounds, yadda yadda. Problem is, I dunno if this is related to the actual loss of weight, or something else (like my fucked-up monthly cycle). I dunno, Maynard -- something else to talk to the doc about, I suppose. On the diet side, I did cheat today and have a peanut butter sandwich on seven-grain bread, but I figured I feel crappy, I've been extremely good and legal since the beginning of induction, and it's not like I'm chowing down on pizza or french fries. Total food intake today was a big chicken caesar salad, one Atkins bar, one serving of low-carb frozen dessert, the sandwich and sausage and sauerkraut for dinner. I'm still doing damned good, I think. |
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